I'd Walk In The Rain

I’d walk in the rain until I’m soggy and wet


I‘d walk for hours if that would help me forget


And for the removal of this fret


I’d walk in the rain if I could experience Lupus no more


I’d walk in the rain if that meant life would no longer be a chore


I’d walk in the rain so my tears could be camouflaged


I‘d walk in the rain if I could feel like I wasn’t against all odds


I’d walk in the rain if that meant I could be the mother I want to be


Running


Laughing


Providing for my one plus three


I’d walk in the rain God


I’m confessing that I would


I would leave nothing undone


I would do all that I should


I’d walk in the rain






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The Message That I Didn't Want To Erase

I hear his voice over and over again and I miss his laugh


To spend my whole life with my father is all I asked,


All I longed for was to know and see him more


Hug him hold him close
Let him know he is adored


That he is appreciated


By his death I am devastated


I’m hurt that life would go this way


My longing to see him was eventually quenched
It is his voice that I miss


In conversation at times full of a father’s correction
Him showing a sign of concern and affection


I just wish I had the message to play repeatedly


I’m hoping he knew how much and what he meant to me


I love you daddy
I loved your ways
I loved your conversation


I was amazed with your maturity
With how you stood with open arms


A man that was willing to admit he was wrong and
apologize if he caused you harm


I wish I could hear his voice again
Hear his laugh and see his smile


Rest in peace Daddy,
Love your child


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Hope Does Not Disappoint

I can relate to people because I am a person.



I can relate to "black" people because I am "black".


I’m aware of the specific struggles, the specific setbacks, and the hardships of the "black community".


I’m aware of how the specific struggles, setbacks, and hardships that complicate our lives.


So therefore, the challenge for me is to give back to the "black community" everything it has given to me; such as strength, audacity, love, and hope.


It is hope that does not disappoint.








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Of This Point

Of this point of ignorance, Lord, ‘Shake me loose”

A young girl claim to have game, but I have no clue.
Out here thinking’ I can dish with the best, Yet my soul has no rest.


All my desires go unfulfilled.
I've tried it all and nothing brings about thrill.


Some say this is evidence that I’m spiritually empty.
Lord, I can’t sleep it feels as if you are dealin’ with me.


This struggle brings about these contemplation's…
Lord, I’m suffering at the hands of deceit.
Deprived of the truth, I can no longer take being vacant.


Lord, I ask that you come in and set up shop.
I’m willing to represent out loud that you got this on lock,.


Clean out my heart that is the filter of my flesh,
Remove the hopelessness and the stagnation of stress.

Gather my thoughts and purify my intentions.
Take away this strife
Send peace to cease this spirit of vengeance.


Lord, of this point of ignorance, “Shake me loose”


Send your word as rebuke and reproof.


Gather my thoughts and purify my intentions
Gather the scattered pieces you have the ability to mend it.


Shake me loose, mold and make me free,
Send your word so that your will may be perfected in me.


Lord, I can’t even say that I hate to beg. I’m making every effort to be truthful.
It is this circumstance I dread.


I ask that you help me to clear my head, cause my mind to be stable,


Of this point of ignorance “ Shake me Loose”, To do this I know that you are able.





Lyrically Phenomenal/Lyrically Loaded /Purposeful Noise
(Written By Atiya Raine Meadows-Thomas)
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When We Rode

WHEN WE RODE


When we rode, we rode in silence


Hoping that today is different
Putting it all behind us


Our gestures, demeanors and nonverbals
Tell how we wish we could get over life’s hurdles


And that the seed of trouble becomes barren instead of fertile


Our hopes speaking loudly
But our reality is cloudy


When I look at the passengers faces, I think of where I was when God found me




Destitute and isolated
Wanting relief and a simple life
Things were just too complicated


Ignorant and Inconsiderate
And if pushed belligerent


Hoping for the phone to ring


Needing a sincere friend
But instead a downward spiraling


Thinking to myself, who will pick up the pieces?
Who will establish peace in a life that some consider to be a lost cause?


Skipping classes hiding in bathrooms and roaming the halls


Didn’t realize I talked too much and revealed who I was too soon
A recipe for disaster... “KABOOM”


A rough and rocky habitat


Cruel and confining
Lacked structure and kept me crying


Could any of these people be experiencing such torment?


Needing someone to listen without any comment


When we rode, we rode in silence


Her wanting to cry
Him wanting to die
All of us wondering why


We rode in silence




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Compelled To Yell

From my outward appearance you would say

I was okay

But my body is an all out struggle

And I can’t imagine continuing in this way!

I’ am compelled to yell!

Outwardly, I may appear fine

Like woman who is experiencing weight gain

A possible hormonal change

Should I share my story or refrain?

I’ am compelled to yell,

That this well is dry!

All I can do is shake my head in disbelief!

What an unfortunate circumstance, is my cry!

I’ am compelled to yell!

If that will get my point across

To express that I’ am at a loss

When will this be lifted?

When will seasons change?

How much longer will I be sifted?

I’ am compelled to yell!

Compelled to obtain and hold your attention

To convince

Persuade

Maybe invade

Your comfort zone

Say something that hits close to home

That may cause you to pick up the phone

Call and apologize or to stop telling that lie

To believe

To hope again

To forgive an old friend

With a family member make amends

I’ am compelled to yell

To become emotional

To connect

To affect

Compelled to yell!

-ATIYA

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Pharmacy Counter

I'm standing at the pharmacy counter.
The wait is long.
The line behind me gives off the impression that a memo had been sent out that this is where you can get something for "Free".
"It's just that crowded and busy."
WOW!
The cars outside of the pharmacy window are lined up.
Does it or should it raise a concern about why so many people are in need of, dependant on, must have perscription medications?
Talking about a state of emergency.




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